Iraq in the heart

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Poem by John Tarrant Roshi. 2003.

Two soldiers
are preparing to surrender.
Right now they are just hunched down in a bunker
to get below the fire fight, and also
because, curled up like this, you can depend for a moment

on the plainness of gravel,
the kindness of the dark —
believe that your mother’s arms have blessed you
and though it is late,
the world might still embrace you, personally.
Perhaps the bunker is a find, like a Rolex on the battlefield,
perhaps they have dug it themselves
but a place like this
is on the way to somewhere else,
so they haven’t planned to be here.

They
have planned to surrender though.
One of them has a white cloth tied to a stick
gripped tightly in his right hand.
The white flag belongs to the nation
without a name.
It doesn’t have a written history
or plans of any kind
and it’s not represented at the UN.
He hasn’t raised that blank flag yet.
We know that he’s right handed.
It’s possible that the other hand has in it
something important
like the air-dropped leaflets on how to surrender,
but you don’t usually practice
waving a white flag,
so yes, you would hold it in your dominant hand.
And a white cloth a couple of feet square
is not something that you happen to have in your pockets;
you must have brought it with you,
and a thick, strong stick, too,
you can’t find that just lying around in miles of
sand.

Unfortunately,
despite the provision of the white cloth
despite the effort of finding a stick,
and of hunching over as far as they could,
in a posture as touching as yours or mine would be,
and despite having no visible wounds,
they are dead.

And
the failed magic of cloth, stick, hunching over,
goes on reaching, unfailed, in another dimension.
It shows how intimate they are, my enemies,
how much like me.
And now that I have seen their death,
I’ll have to live for them—
and carry them
so they can see,
and have that weight, that confusion
so necessary for the living,
I can’t help but make for them
a place in my heart.