PZI Teacher Archives
Who am I?
—PZI Inquiry Koan
Part 1 of the January Silence series. What falls away at year’s end? Beginnings and endings are linked to uncertainty. If we can allow it, we learn to rest in that and find beauty in that mystery. In this season there is often a deep internal retreat, followed by the stirring of the new. What is it that is unfolding? Who am I? Can I hold the paradox of emptiness and form as I experience what is unfolding in my life? Where am I in my life? The not-knowing is always available. Dreams, poems and comments. Jordan McConnell plays music for meditation. January 8 2023.
Audio PZI Zen Online: Whatever mind you have right now in the middle of covid and civil unrest is it! Is Buddha. A great gift. We soak into koan practice and thoughts are part of the mix. They come and go and small mind perceives the vast mind. Who are we and what is this? As recorded July 13 2020.
John Tarrant shares his interest in investigating reality through inquiry koans, koan types, the huatou of koans, stories, and more. As recorded in Winter Sesshin, January 14, 2020.
PZI Sesshin closing Sutra ceremony: Purification, Refuge, Kanzeon, Joy in the Roads reading & the Four Boundless Vows. Amaryllis Fletcher, PZI Cantor, plays violin for closing meditation. Sammy Shin, on guitar, Jan Black on Drum.
Inquiring into being a Me, a Who, a Somebody, into What am I?, I lose ‘myself’ and then ‘Everything is true’! Why doesn’t that awareness stay? More interesting to have fun than to be ‘somebody’, but we cling to that. Asking ‘Who am I?’ has a subversive quality: it undoes the world you’re in, your identity. Then the radiance of the universe comes towards you, you’re drenched with the universe, because you’re not in the way.
The dark things shine as brightly as the bright light—we don’t need health to shine.
Monday evening at Sesshin 2017 January – John talks about this basic question: Who Am I? How this inquiry sides with the Dao and a sense of wonder. It opens and aligns with our natural doubt about all of our assumptions.