John
Tarrant on taking refuge:
Refuge
comes when a certain kind of wandering is finished because
now we can make out a path through the fog. Perhaps the
true wandering begins then, in trust. We have become curious,
we listen to the inner life and act on what we hear and
follow it. Like a wedding the ceremony closes one time and
opens another that we are already becoming immersed in.
And Refuge is a public ceremony—we acknowledge that
we are in a greater whole, composed of uncountable beings,
of stars and plants and rivers and particular people who
know us well. Our vows are taken before this big audience.
From
our small point of view, refuge is intended to be helpful
and practical. If we are confused we can check our experience
against the vows and the spirit of the ceremony. What is
this? How does it fit? Is it right? Do I love it? So we
can begin to refine our question and our capacity to ask
and explore. And we choose. We understand by this that we
won't always make the best choice because we choose what
we don't know. We choose to walk a path without a precise
knowledge of the destination. It takes courage to choose
and this is a good thing, close to love. And we are willing
to bear the shame and guilt of choosing and erring and changing.
When we decide, other possibilities go dark. There is risk.
By choosing we show that we have learned this—that
sometimes the choosing itself is as important as what is
chosen, that we are on a journey not at a place of ending
and it's best if we love the travelling for its own sake.
In
their profound sense the vows lead us down into the timeless
center of the world which is the core of the self. There,
we walk alone in the moonlight, not remembering our names.
Finally,
through the vows, we take on the blood line of the teachings
and meet the ancient men and women standing behind us. Our
participation in the way has deepened and turned more towards
joy because we have become conscious of it, we have said
to our inmost selves, "I am walking the way." |